[ it also makes la'an feel slightly ill to read her describe it like that, even though she knows that's the state of this place and not something she believes herself. ]
How kind of them. That's not how they phrase it, is it?
I'm okay, for the time being. I don't intend to spend our time here in prison so I know I'll need to sign eventually.
he hasn't said it yet and i hope it doesn't come because otherwise a discussion will be had. i'm still a member of starfleet and a capable medical professional even if this place thinks i'm a second-class citizen. i wonder how they decide? do they toss a coin?
me either. you'd think i would remember having a giant line tattooed down my neck and yet, here we are. i feel like as a nurse i need to ask if you're okay. i know you probably won't say if you are or aren't but if someone's asking about mental health, it's going to be me.
[ she has to say she's relieved to see that the designation and her having a dominant hasn't changed her at all. she knows it wouldn't have under usual circumstances, but it's the unusual ones she's afraid of. ]
holding up. i have to admit, the wild abandon and sexual revolution is fun but i'd rather have some basic human rights. i'd also like to be able to trust everything i eat and drink.
i've had more of a good time here than i have on my last three shore leaves because none of these people try to drop emotions on me. you know how it is. you meet up for a few times and all of a sudden they just want to talk about where you're headed. i'm not heading anywhere.
i don't know the point of hurting yourself like that. i guess love will find a way even if this is a place where you absolutely should not fall in love. it's the human condition.
you either become more cynical or find someone that makes it all worth it, i guess. i've never been in a position to find someone worth risking it all for. just easier not to open up, you know?
[ she understands it, absolutely. and if this were a few months ago (half a year? it's difficult to tell in this place, especially with everyone from different points in time) she'd be more inclined to agree.
but then she'd wound up in a time where she didn't belong. met someone who made her feel like that kind of thing could be possible.
and then she'd watched him die. ]
Yes. I do know.
I didn't ask earlier, what's the last thing you remember from home?
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Date: 2023-12-05 02:55 am (UTC)( ... )
have you found a dominant? i managed to meet another starfleet captain.
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Date: 2023-12-05 03:23 am (UTC)[ haha, well. ]
No. I've had offers made. I just haven't taken them.
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Date: 2023-12-05 03:24 am (UTC)do i need to buy you anything? my dominant lets me have a job at the hospital as much as it disgusts me to say lets.
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Date: 2023-12-05 03:35 am (UTC)How kind of them. That's not how they phrase it, is it?
I'm okay, for the time being. I don't intend to spend our time here in prison so I know I'll need to sign eventually.
But thank you.
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Date: 2023-12-05 03:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-12-05 03:45 am (UTC)I think it's based on chance. I think there was a door involved. I was awake for the examination but I don't remember having the mark during.
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Date: 2023-12-05 03:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-12-05 04:01 am (UTC)I'm fine. But I've had longer to adapt.
How are you doing?
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Date: 2023-12-05 04:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-12-05 04:23 am (UTC)[ not that she's speaking from experience. ]
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Date: 2023-12-05 04:32 am (UTC)( ... )
i feel like this isn't a problem you run into.
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Date: 2023-12-05 04:43 am (UTC)[ she's absolutely not trying to be evasive. mm-mm. ]
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Date: 2023-12-05 04:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-12-05 04:56 am (UTC)[ she tries, anyway. ]
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Date: 2023-12-05 04:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-12-05 05:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-12-05 05:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-12-05 05:06 am (UTC)[ again, not speaking from experience or anything. ]
I can sort of understand it, if you've been here long enough. Some have been here for years.
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Date: 2023-12-05 05:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-12-06 01:57 am (UTC)but then she'd wound up in a time where she didn't belong. met someone who made her feel like that kind of thing could be possible.
and then she'd watched him die. ]
Yes. I do know.
I didn't ask earlier, what's the last thing you remember from home?
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Date: 2023-12-08 11:46 pm (UTC)